It's been a while since I've blogged. Couldn't get any inspiration and nothing seemed to drive me to blog, though a few things did happen.

Finally got an urge to blog. Blog now seemed like my only friend. Maybe some of you might find it impossible. Why would I feel lonely in hall? Shouldn't hall be a place filled with people who sleep late and is filled with activities? Isn't Fiona quite active in hall? So why is she lonely?

I guess it's precisely in this very social environment, I feel like a sore thumb. I can't really talk to people well, no one is interested to have a long conversation with me. They don't usually take the initiative to talk either. So what if I joined many things? In the end I'm always a nobody. No credit, no nothing. Suddenly I liked standing outside my door and stare at the sky or the trees. Something that I haven't been doing for quite some time. And I'll stone there. Usually it'll be quiet, but today it was kinda noisy. Felt worse. The more I hear chatter and laughter, the worse I feel. I'll probably go out again when the noise gone.

Stuck at Jap tutorial. Felt stupid and am starting to regret. Did I make the right choice by taking Jap2 ? I've already returned what I learnt from Jap1 so taking Jap2 now makes me feel inferior in class. The first time I ever dread going for Jap lessons.

I think I need to stare at the trees. Maybe should detach myself from this world...