Exams are finally over for me! Whee! No more study room, no more Hall7 for the time being.

I don't know why, but this sem, I don't feel the happiness that exams are over. Instead, I get a splitting headache. :\ Zhikang says it's emptiness. Maybe.

I miss the study room gang already. Like seriously. I think that they are the sweetest bunch of people that I've known!

Other than the birthday surprise that I blogged about, I'm really touched at their sweetness. They will offer to do welfare by going out to buy meals back, so that the people with papers the next day can study more. For me, I was really touched with the messages they sent me everyday, after their exams has ended, to give me encouragement, and to spur me on. Telling me to Jia You! Wishing me all the best. And how can I ever forget to mention the sweet postcards that they wrote to me! The sisters! Minling and Wanling! Can't believe that this will be my last sem seeing most of them. People like Minling, Evan, Wayne and even Weiming are all graduating! And as for Wanling, I won't get to see her for 1.5yrs! My gosh! The next time we can study together would be in our final year! *gasps*

I'll post up some study room pics once I transfer them from my lappie to my desktop. Haha. I know I owe quite a lot of pictures, but I WILL post them up soon. Hehe. I even forgotten to blog about my trip to the cemetery. I'm finally back there after many years of absence. Opps. Some interesting photos. :) Hopefully, all the pics in the next post. Haha! So beware, the next post might just be filled with photos. :)

Time to slack and slack and slack! And also to make sure I finish everything on my To-Do list! :)

From the title, you had your warning. Read at your own risk!

Had my first paper today. Didn't think I did as well as I expected, but heck, it's over!

I guess the rain has gotten to me. Made me gloomy. Mood swings and stuff. Seriously, if you're not ready to read immature emo-ness, please turn away now. It's not too late.

Loneliness has started to creep into my life. The whole week in hall, even the freaking weekends! I mean, it was my choice, cause I wanted to study more, but the loneliness is really killing me. I wondered if the number of MSN conversations equate to the number of friends you have. Cause if it does, then I'm one of the saddest person on earth. Bah! I RARELY get someone to initiate a conversation with me. And out of those rare moments, most of them usually is to ask me questions and the conversation just dies there. Makes me wonder if I'm really that uninteresting to talk to? Or no one has anything to share with me? I guess it is this craving of wanting someone to talk to me that has been making me bring down my laptop to the study room and every 5 sec, stare at the screen, click on the messenger icon, check who is online or check if someone is talking to me, sometimes I even yearn so badly for a REPLY! Dang! Of course, this MSN thing has got to do with a Someone. That Someone does account for a portion of this. But I generally see this as a problem. Personally.

Next is the study room. I love the study room gang. I really do. They have been looking out for me, buying food for me, ensuring that I have a space at a table. But for the past few days, I've got this nagging feeling that I can never fit in. And that I'll never be a part of them. I'm never with them on their jokes, never with them on their Hush-hush talks. I'm just a little junior whom they need to look after. But never close enough personally. I'm not implying that it is their fault, but I just can't get this damn bloody nagging feeling off my chest.

So imagine me, sitting in the study room, trying to study, but end up glancing at my laptop, hoping to see some flashing orange light but will never see. And the study room gang is all around me occasionally joking about things I can never understand or can't even hear. Or they will all congregate at one table and start to talk and laugh a bit. Bleah. Double whammy of loneliness.

Oh well, this is just my 2nd weekend in hall. I still need to survive for my 3rd weekend. And I kinda dread that weekend, cause the people I'm so called closer to in the study room gang would have gone home as they would have finished their exams.

Dang it!

Something wonderful just happened to me a couple of hours ago. Not only did the clock strike 12 and I'm officially 21, I got the surprise of my life. :)

The study room gang, surprised me with Mee Sua and Shou Tao! And guess where? The STUDY ROOM! My gosh! Haha. Cause I was sitting with my back facing the door and just in front of the door too! So they opened the door and started singing very softly, Happy Birthday! Haha. And they placed a bowl of Mee Sua and a Shou Tao with a lighted candle on it! Haha! I've never eaten Mee Sua or Shou Tao on my birthday before and this was a real pleasant surprise! The most surprising thing was that they actually did it in the study room! Haha! Even if I could have guessed that there was a surprise, I would never have thought that it would take place in the study room! Imagine me eating my Mee Sua in the study room! Haha! Since it was my first time and I was really touched by their thoughtfulness, I finished my Mee Sua till there's only a few pieces of carrot left. And I finished the Shou Tao too!

Really really really very touched! I mean, some of them have paper on my birthday itself, but they still took some time off to celebrate with me! I'm really really really touched! This has to be the best birthday I've ever ever celebrated! :)

Pictures of the study room celebration will be up later when Minling sends me the photos. then you guys can see my Mee Sua and my Shou Tao! :)

Love the study room gang to bits!!! And thanks for the card!!! :) :) :) :) :) <3 <3 <3

My mind is filled with things I shouldn't be thinking about right now. Right now, when exams are like in a week's time, I should be focused on my studies right now and mugging my ass off. But here I am, thinking about things that I should only think about after exams or maybe shouldn't even think about. Bah!

Someone please knock some sense into me!! But don't knock out whatever I memorised for the exams. :x Haha!

Finally met up with yunz and jess for our long overdue lunch meet up. Since the new food place near Can A has opened, we had our lunch there! At Palette Bistro. Food wasn't fantastic, and it was pricey. Not recommended. But food wasn't my main priority today. Meeting them was! We were as usual, crazy, crazy and crazy. Haha! Makes me want to go back to secondary school times.

After lunch, managed to psycho them to come over to my hall. I really enjoyed the talk with them. About guys and relationships and feelings. I'm glad I got it off my chest. But it made me kinda hua chi in the end. Haha. Hope we can meet up more often like this. I love today! :)

Of course the topics we talked about stirred some kind of mixed emotions in me. I think I'm more positive about my feelings but I can't help but wonder about my chances. I think it's real slim, though I'm trying to psycho myself otherwise. Don't want to be such a wet blanket to myself. But I must not get my hopes up too high. Though uncertain, I'm really really happy today. Can't wipe the smile off my face. :)

Yun and Jess!! Meet up more ok? Love ya! :)

I had my 21st Birthday Celebration today!! :)

Today is a truly happy and tiring day! Thanks to all those came down, you guys really really made my day!

Really sorry to all, as I know I wasn't around much. But I did try my best! :)

Thanks for all the gifts and well wishes and "surprises". :)

A really short post as no words can describe how I'm feeling right now. So, I'll probably let the pictures do the talking. But I need to get all the photos from the other people first and maybe after my exams, I'll upload them up. Haha.

Thanks again to all!! Love ya!!! MUACKS!!!!